I tried ...

I tried to call you , to wish happy birthday to you..
but it seems you enjoyed your free call with someone...
well , it's okay .
this is the only place that I can talk about.
hmm....
I don't know what to any more ...

Song for your birthday , Afiqah .... :')

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

[Pre-Chorus:]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is...

[Chorus:]
I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman
That's just what you are
Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

[Pre-Chorus:]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is...

[Chorus:]
I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

[Bridge:]
If my body was on fire
Oh, you watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never ever ever did, baby

[Chorus:]
But, darling, I'd still catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Oh, you'd never do the same
Oh, no no no

Selamat Hari Jadi ke 19

Selamat Hari Jadi , awak .
Semoga murah rezeki , umur panjang , dilimpahkan segalanya , abis belajar dan semoga cepat kawin .
Saya tak boleh contact awak, sebab saya tau awak tgh bahagia dengan siapa .
Apa semua .

Apa-apa pun , saya ucapkan selamat bahagia .
Sila pergi dari hidup saya cepat-cepat.
Terima kasih .....

something that you won't able to say , even it's gonna make you bleed all the way in your heart....

sometimes, we think we are strong enough to face the complication of life .
sometimes, we scared to say something that gonna break he/her heart .
sometimes, we are dying to see them , to talk , to feel , to hold them and wish the moment were last forever.

but it seems, the world are too cruel , full of people who doesn't appreciate for who you are, for who you gonna be and for who you gonna love till forever.

by this time, I've said , something that gonna hurt me , gonna stab me too deep , and let the heart die once again.
but, this is just the beginning , beginning of my new life without her , without something that just appear for a minute, hours or maybe just a day .

I've delete her number , her photo , everything about her in my lappy . 'coz it seems too hurt to watch , something you love , something you care and something that call "another half of you" , together with somebody....

it's just too hurt .. deep in my heart,
I don't know what I should do right now, I've miss my interview at 11 AM today .
Just because, I really miss her , really want to meet with her , really miss her voice ... miss everything bout her.
But it seems, it was only me , who care bout this, who cherish bout the memory and who still hoping for something that won't come back to me , no matter how hard I try , how much time I spend , it was rip to the pieces !

For you , Nur Atiqah Bte Mohd Hassim .
Our story , end here.
No more , no less.

#now playing Colbie Caillat - I never told you

Keputusan !

Aku dah cuba yang terbaik , aku dah beri yang terbaik , aku tekad . aku akan tinggalkan dia , bersama kekasih hati dia . dan aku nekad untuk tak akan carik dia lagi , walau macam mana sekalipun . jaga diri , jaga makan minum . maaf , sebab saya dah tak boleh jaga awak , tak boleh tgk awak , tak boleh rindu kat awak , tak boleh sayang awak , dan yang paling penting , tak boleh cintakan awak seperti dahulu. saya harap awak paham , yang cinta itu satu , bukan dua . kalau dua , itu bukan cinta , tapi tak setia . saya mintak maaf banyak2 , dan saya tak akan ganggu hidup awak , selama-lamanya ! maaf sekali lagi , dan selamat tinggal .

Serba salah....

Aku buntu ... aku serba salah . Aku nak contact dia , nak msg dia , nak call dia . Tapi aku takut ...... takut dia tak balas segala msg , angkat segala call aku :( Jujur aku katakan , aku rindu dia sangat sangat, tapi jangan buat aku rindu terlalu lama dan buat aku tertunggu tunggu sedangkan kau bahagia disamping dia. Kerna aku takut , bahwa aku hanya menunggu rembulan jatuh ke riba dan membuatkan aku , bergerak pergi meninggalkan engkau di sampingnya. Dan tidak akan sesekali aku berpaling balik , biar pun engkau merayu macam mana sekalipun ... kerna masa itu .. sudah terlalu lambat untuk aku, menerimamu kembali manja...

Stand here , waiting for her .... or move on ?

haihhh .. aku hanya mampu mengeluh panjang , aku mahukan dia utk bersama dengan ku.... tapi tiap kali , SETIAP KALI ! setiap kali aku usaha , setiap kali itu lah , dia bersama egonya , dia besama penipuannya, dia bersama kehendaknya , dia bersama nafsunya... kenapa wak ? salahkah saya , kalau saya hendak bersama dengan awak . boleh tak , kalau awak setia ... setia hanya dengan saya , saya cuba utk bertahan kerna awak , saya cuba utk tahan sakit perih saya kerna awak , saya cuba segalanya , bukan sekali , bukan dua kali tapi dah tak terkira berapa kali.. awak , kalau betul lah . awak nak kan saya . tolong buktikan , bukan dengan pasang banyak . bukan dengan berbaik dgn saya , lepas tu tipu saya .. saya sakit wak ... bukan tak sakit hati saya dah tak terkira betapa banyak calarnya , betapa banyak balarnya saya terduduk , selingkuh , terlentang , telanjang mengenangkan awak , tangisi pemergian awak , saya lihat awak seronok dengan orang lain . awak happy dengan orang lain, tapi bila saya hampir ,... HAMPIR utk melupakan awak , awak datang kembali .. kenapa ? saya buntu. *diam* saya masih cintakan awak, selamat hari lahir , lagi 4 hari wak . assalamualaikum anje .....